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Ch. VIII - The Break © 2020

by Lost as Found

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Rearrange Me (Don't You Dare Repaint Me) 04:18
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When I was just a kid, you used to say you loved me But now I wonder if you ever did When I, was barely five years old, you scarred my mortal soul With words that cut me deeper than a life I’m cursed to live alone When I was just a kid, a father in the sky above me But now I wonder if he ever lived When I, was barely five years young, you cursed me with your tongue With words that bent me out of shape, the threads of fate and trust undone I was my father’s only son Now I’m his daughter on the run When I, was barely twenty five, you sided with a villain Who was ill’in’, it was killin me, he was cheating on his wife When I, was barely twenty six, your hesitation sticks, I fell in love, you kicked me out, you said that I was turning tricks You’re fucking sick You’re such a bitch Don’t you ever try to change me Don’t you ever rearrange me Get the fuck away from me Don’t repaint my colors with your grey Don’t, you ever try to change me Don’t ever rearrange me I’ll rearrange your face Now I know, I know that you’re alone And you know, I hope that you’re in pain And I know, I know you’re on your own And you know, you know I can’t complain Now I, I’m barely twenty nine, and I am doing fine I’ve got a love that holds me close, I’m eating well, I’m drinking wine And you, are broken on your own, a big old empty home I hope you’re fucking happy, but I know you’re bitter and alone
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Anybody Else (Blame is Due) Ft. SarahCarcinogen 04:34
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To this day, I still remember the taste of blood in my mouth Disconnected, reconnecting, the way the abuse really felt I’ll give you anything, I don’t value myself Do you think that they would care, if it happened to, anybody else? I don’t know when I’ll be back in town all I know is that she’ll wait around for me Would I rip hearts apart like paper With eyes the colour of the sea Life is cruel, but survivors remember That time heals nothing “If it were really that bad, we would have noticed something” I will not cover this page, this is your burden to bear You are the reason for it all, [Blame is Due] you know it’s true, I think it’s time I share The question is who am I? But I am trying not to think about it. With the blood of somebody you love “I don’t think you’re trying hard enough” I suffer great disaster because I have a body When I have no body, what disaster can there be? You kill with sarcastic sincerity, you pierce me through my chest “You’re so charming, baby, wallowing in self-pity, at best”
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Do You Know (That I Love You) [Jan's Song] 06:16
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Twenty-three years since he passed away, but I still drove by just the other day Thanks for the ball, come on lets play, and I still can’t find the words to say It’s just not right, and I can’t explain, spend so much time trying to numb the pain It’d be different if you hopped on a plane, than the unfair fate of an early grave Twenty-three years, and I wore it well, cause I kept on smiling so they just can’t tell sorry that I tripped and fell, cause I promised heaven, but I gave you hell It’s just not right, and I can’t explain, all the stupid ways I used to numb the pain I’m sorry that I believed the lies, when the truth is that wasn’t suicide I’m sorry that I never knew, I’m sorry for the things I do To miss someone I barely met, every day I’m asking, is it over yet? I’m sorry for the ways I hate, I wish I could escape my fate To miss someone I barely knew, do you still know that I love you? Twenty-three years, but the wound is fresh, I play with knives, ‘cause it’s only flesh Doesn’t compare to the pain inside, ripped right back open when my momma lied It’s just not right, and I can’t explain, why a lie like that caused so much pain Does it drive you mad? It drives me insane, and I’m right back at the start again Twenty-three years, since I’ve seen your face, twenty-three homes, in a brand new place, I’m always alone, and that’s just the case, cause the truth I learned is nothing stays It’s just not right, and I can’t explain, all the friends and family I pushed away I dance with death, and you know it’s true, I run from them, as I run to you Twenty-three years, since you passed away, but I still drove by just the other day Can you hear my song, can you hear me play? Do I make you proud, in my own weird way? It’s just not right, and it’s just not fair, all the years I wasted, when I should have cared I’m sorry I believed the lies, when the truth is it wasn’t suicide But the more I hurt, is the more I learn, my greatest gift is the way I burn even if you did, I wouldn’t blame you, cause if you hurt like me, you would end the pain too But the more I hurt, is the more I care, my greatest gift is the love I share Cause the people here, they hurt so bad, but I won’t lose them, the way I thought I lost … my dad.
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Don't You Know (The Best Apology is Changed Behavior) 03:21
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They try to say you shouldn’t say it you don’t mean it They try to tell you sorry but you know you don’t believe it They try to sell you something but you don’t want a reason You want a father who’s a parent and a mother who is decent They try to say you shouldn’t speak up when you’re hurting They try to tell you you’re not hot, baby you’re burning They try to keep you down, to keep you out, to keep you mean You want a brighter sky, not nightmares in your day dreams Don’t want your lies, don’t want disguise, no “maybe later” ‘ s Don’t you know the best apology is changed behavior? I’m not ready to go down, but if I do I’m going swinging Not ready to shut up, I’ll keep on laughing keep on singing And you can hate the game, but baby don’t you hate the player Don’t you know the best apology is changed behavior? They try to shut you up and fill your mouth with a prescription They try to shame you for the way you battle with addiction They try to hold you down but baby they just hold you back Don’t you know the way they count the cards, the deck is stacked They try to say you shouldn’t speak up when you’re hurting They try to blame you for it, but you don’t deserve it They try to bite you, try to fight you, in behind the scenes But baby don’t you compromise, when it comes to apologies I’m not ready to go down, but if I do I’m going swinging Not ready to shut up, I’ll keep on laughing keep on singing And you can hate the game, but baby don’t you hate the player Don’t you know the best apology is changed behavior? Don’t want no rejects, don't want no disrespect, I just want honesty All this deceit and all these defects, oh babe you’re killing me
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Codependent Vampire 02:48
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You codependent vampire, you tried to build an empire Don’t you know that Monarchy is Sin? You social suicidal child, your ignorance is running wild Why don’t you give it up, you’ll never win Nobody wants to play your games You caught a bird who came be tamed I can’t be tamed Now I just want to choke you out Rip out your teeth right from your bloody mouth It's going South! Now I just want to choke you out The Light of Truth Will Dry You Out Oh codependent vampire, there’s nothing left to admire You sucked us dry, but you just fucked yourself You social suicidal child, insatiable and dead inside You should’ve bent your teeth on someone else Nobody wants to play your games So clip my wings and make me tame I can’t be tamed Now I just want to choke you out Rip out your teeth right from your bloody mouth It's going South! Now I just want to choke you out The Light of Truth Will Dry You Out Burn up in the sun x4 Now I just want to choke you out Rip out your teeth right from your bloody mouth It's going South! Now I just want to choke you out The Light of Truth Will Dry You Out
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Bury in the Back Yard ft. SarahCarcinogen 04:27
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If I decide to burn instead of fading out I still would like a chance for us to say goodbye Over and over again I think I’m drunk enough to drive you home now On champagne from a paper cup I keep my mouth kept shut, under lock and key The last time I spoke to you You didn’t know what day it was You asked me how work was when you Knew I never worked on Thursdays It's fucking Thursday You make me sick, but I make myself sicker Evertyhing I touch turns to coal, my soul is broken The shade of red that falls to the pavement Look to the sky How could you ever love me when I’m the kind of girl you bury in your back yard Be quiet, be nice, and most of all, compliant; the kind of girl you bury in your back yard One Meal a day or less How much art do I have to make until it stops hurting Cover the filth and let me go now My thoughts are in black and white but so is the rest of me Not all loss is a crisis But all crisis is a loss I am caught between two extremes I can’t fix it Look to the sky How could you ever love me when I’m the kind of girl you bury in your back yard Be quiet, be nice, and most of all, compliant; the kind of girl you bury in your back yard
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A Prayer for All My Enemies 04:35
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Another day another dagger in my back The monster’s holding on, but I don’t wanna hold it back I try to run, I try to fight I try to scream I’m tired of not giving up, and I don’t wanna bleed Another mother’s broken heart is bleeding out Another child is crying out alone, in muffled shouts Stuff it down, and suck it up, you’re just too much, you’re not enough You’ll never be enough for me, the poster child of tragedy Well, that’s just…. Fine What’s my next line? Another mother’s expectations to fall short Another child, she said she wanted to abort Your daddy forced me, don’t you see? I hate your guts, I wish you’d leave So pack up all your shit, and get the fuck out of my family tree. Well, that’s just…. Fine What’s my next line? I pray that, you can find the remedy, a prayer for all my enemies I wish you peace I pray that you can find the peace you need, if what it takes, is me to leave I wish you peace; God have Mercy on my enemies Another day, another grudge you’re holding on Another friend cut off, another dies, another’s gone Can’t you see our time is short? The justice isn’t in the courts So try to love, try to forgive, Gas smells awful, might as well live. Well, that’s just…. Fine What’s my next line? I pray that, you can find the remedy, a prayer for all my enemies I wish you peace I pray that you can find the peace you need, if what it takes, is me to leave I wish you peace; God have Mercy on my enemies The fire it burns me, but the dark it don't deserve me, you see Try to believe The fire it burns me, but the darkness don't deserve me, you see Try to believe; Have mercy on my enemies I pray that, you can find the remedy, a prayer for all my enemies I wish you peace I pray that you can find the peace you need, if what it takes, is me to leave I wish you peace; God have Mercy on my enemies
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Nirvana 04:46
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If I could wish upon a star I'd wish that you were happier But I don't think it's that easy If I could offer up a prayer Would you hear it? Are you there? I swear it isn't just to please me Is this life more that what it seems? Is there something to my dreams? Are you safe, are you happy? Are you all alone above? Did you finally fall in love? Are you safe; are you laughing? Did you finally reach Nirvana? Did you do all the things you wanna? Are you proud to be a God? If I could tell you just one thing As the winter turns to spring Would you hear it; Would you listen? If I could offer up a word Is this world for the birds? Are you safe; are you happy?
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Will I Make It 05:44
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They don’t get it, they don’t understand We’ve all said it, but we don’t know the plan I try to believe, in an elusive greater good Try to be the kind of man, my father said I should Try to be the kind of daughter, my mother would respect But I’m tired of trying, Lord I’m such a wreck I count my money, ‘fore the dealing’s done Win many battles, before the war is won My handsight’s twenty-twenty, my hands around my neck I tried to quit my job, before I cashed the cheque I don’t get it, and I don’t understand I know I’ve said it, but I don’t know the plan Oh Lord I know you’re with me, I know I’m not alone But will I ever make it? Will I make it home? She paint’s her nails, she dots her I’s He ties his sneakers, they’re not his size She takes his money, takes off her clothes He thinks it’s funny, but they don’t know
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Devil's in The Details 04:12
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You want it all you made the call you lost it You took the chance, paid in advance, you cost it You tried to hide, take my advice, it's over She's had enough, don't call her bluff, red rover The Devil's in The Details Buckle up and set sail There's nothing charted here The Devil's in The Details There's nothing left to prevail I can't pretend that I'm alright, Five seconds to midnight Take back the reigns and start again it's alright You set the course, forget the shore, it's tonight You try to hide the pain inside; it's endless She's had enough, don't call her bluff, relentless The Devil's in The Details Nothing left to prevail There's nothing charted here The Devil's in The Details Buckle up and set sail I can't pretend that I'm alright, Five seconds to midnight The Devil's in The Details Nothing left to prevail I can't pretend that I'm alright, The Devil's in The Details Buckle up and set sail I can't pretend that I'm alright, Five seconds to midnight Five seconds to midnight Five seconds to midnight

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released April 5, 2020

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Lost as Found Winnipeg, Manitoba

Lost as Found is a Canadian Indie Rock band from Winnipeg, MB.

Danna Pond is a singer-songwriter who asks what is life, what is love, what's the point?
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Purt Pickles is a TY Beanie Boo with a flute and a Heart of Gold.

Covering subjects such as mental health, addiction and suicide, Danna and Purt hope to shed light on what it is to find meaning in a world so beautiful and yet so broken. ... more

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